What i foresee in my near future are challenges....

Challenges of working doubly hard as a mother, pet owner, wife as well as employee.

As i had a change in job scope, i work doubly harder than what i used to. It's so mentally draining yet i have to return home in full alertness to my mother role.

FruiTy had left us physically. She is resting in her cage right now till i'm ready to do anything. She's an indicator of my emotional turmoil. Muffin is under rehab which i don't know if it will work. I do feel for her sometimes going through the rehab but i know it's for the better future for me and her.

My main worries right now is if i am able to handle everything by myself after Didi is borned. Imagine, shuttling of rye, housework, muffin, twinkle and Dating, tending to newborn and breastfeeding. It sounds so overwhelming already....

Sometimes i will ponder on the thought if FruiTy saw this coming and gave up on fighting. =(

FruiTy will always have a special place in my heart more than any pets i have. Even she had the least time with me. The moments we had were never more intense than others. Mostly importantly, she taught Rye how to love and handle a fragile bird. She made Rye giggled so much if you guys could rem the video which won third prize in a competition.

My only regret was Reagen don't have the honour to meet her.

I have bought something to keep her close to my heart. Although people say you don't need it physically, but it's something i know she wanted it. I never once feel so much about her wanting to be with me physically.

I will deeply remember the look on her face after i cupped her in my palms during the last few moments. She was very glad. Very glad that i came home in time.

I do miss you alot. You are a very special being to me.

Labels: Family, FruiTy

Twinkling@
2/21/2012 12:43:00 PM