I don't care if anyone see this while i'm typing away a work.

I HATE A NON SATISFYING WORK!

I feel that i'm taking up this job because Yida feels that i'm not earning enough.
I feel that i'm working because of him and i didn't like my job.
What i like will not bring me as much as he expect me to.

I want to stay at home and be a mother. He refused. He said if i were to stay at home, i must find a way to earn money at home.

What i like to have as a job is to work with animals. But to able to do that with high pay, i have to have qualifications. I don't. Honestly, staying at home, making sure that all my pets are well fed, well given attention for makes my day.

I remember how satisfied i felt when i am able to give the birdies a bath and spend 1 hr with them. I remember how satisfied i felt when i could bring muffin out for a walk with some training in corporated. I remember how satisfied i felt when i was able to teach Rye something that he never knew how to do. I probably feel satisfied if i could keep Yida less legarthic from the new nutrition i prepare for him.

There's where i find my satisfaction. Not ambitious i must say. Nothing rocket high. I even thought of becoming a property agent to have flexible timing. When i told him that thought, he was SO DAMN happy. And kept saying things like you are going to earn more than me! Deep down in, did he ever think about me being happy on what i do? At some point of time, i feel that he's blinded with money.

I'm not the sort who will be happy with $$ and $$. I'm the sort who will be happy if i could make sure all living things around me are happy and contented. By doing a job like this, i only make him happy.

This is so depressing. Really. I admired VH courage to quit her high paying job and do what she likes. I admired April's courage to quit her job to rethink her life. I don't have that courage because i have commitment in my life.

What you ever think of my happiness each time you speak about money?

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Twinkling@
10/04/2011 11:40:00 AM