I have no idea what went wrong with me. The last thing i remembered was shivering in cold under my long sleeves and pants wrapped around with thick blanket. I was brought to the doctor in his car. And i remembered going to the clinic with the least no. of patients as he was rushing to work plus i can't stand the cold.
As i wasn't sorching on the outside, a measured temperature of 39.5 degrees celcius shocked myself and him. Time from then fast forwarded. I was back home and hid under the blanket. I was in dazed for 2 days plus. I wasn't sure if i should include today. Today seemed better but not best. I slept all the way ever since from the doctor. I vaguely remembered my mother fed me medicine and all.
The perpetual sleepiness just had to remind me. I'm afraid but nobody noticed. I wonder if the depression earlier lowered my immune system and my desires to hide had caused all these. I wonder if he realised all these had him involved. My lessons with Anne and Song had been cancelled. I couldn't go to work while Zx is on long leave. Shit. I left all the shit for Juliana.
I realised how badly this man can affect me which make me wanna be independent of. I envy April for being able to be happy as long as she wants to. I am far away from that. I need to learn.
Don't ask me if i am excited to go US. The answer is no. I am not. Far from it.
Labels: Rants
Twinkling@
11/27/2008 01:04:00 PM
Just put everything aside and focus on getting well. I'm extremely cranky and demanding when I'm sick. Don't worry about work bah, I'm sure your sweet colleagues will understand.
Really hope you'll get well soon. =)
