After Dr Ly's visit, i went out for blading with my friends w/o Yida. The worst thing happened. I was going down slope and it went too fast. So i aimed to grab a metal pole of a tentage. Wrong move. My legs couldn't stop in time. I crashed into the pole with another metal piece protuding from the bottm and injured myself. I felt sharp intense pain and found myself bleeding, non-stop. I used 2 packs of tissue paper and every piece was soaked with blood. I was in shock. Michelle called 995 right away. I made the first call to Yida while he was sleeping. He still tot i was joking till i made the second call, telling him an ambulance was coming. While waiting i was ensuring that it was not Zhiwei's fault as i could see from his face. I became more anxious when i see the bleeding didn't stop and started to worry which part did i injured as i had applied pressure.

Ambulance came. It was embarrassing. Everyone was looking. There were blood stains underneath where i sat. The CD ppl asked me to try standing up and sit on the stretcher. There, i was sent to CGH. An initial examination was painful. X-ray was taken. No internal bleeding nor fracture. The transfer to KKH also couldn't proceed as i was still bleeding. So they bandaged me and sent me over. One doc over there say need a stitch, the other say no need stitch. So there was no stitch. Was hospitalized for observation a day to ensure no more oozing of blood. I am still very swollen too.

In the morning, i received a called from Yida. My gut feeling told me it was no good news. It was true enough. Bluie passed on the very night i was away. Just one night i am not around and she is gone. I felt worse when i can't even buried her myself. He told me when he found her gone, she was in a sleeping position. Head tuck under the wing with the whole body slanting to one side. Tears just couldn't stop flowing early in the morning. Maybe if i didn't hospitalized, she would be still around. Yida did the burial and sterilising. I requested Yida to sprinkle seeds over Bluie before burial. She was wrapped in tissue paper before entering the soil.


This is the place where Bluie rests without suffering.

Maybe it's really true that pets will actually die in place of the owner. I was still telling my mum yday that maybe my accident would have make Bluie live longer. It appeared to be the other way round. I could have more serious injury if she didn't die in place?

Nevertheless, i will miss her. I nursed her the moment i knew her. I informed Dr Tong and he was comforting. He is still the nicest vet.

Yesterday after the visit to Dr Ly, i actually told April that Hiccups may not have die if he went to Dr Ly as he had the food for renal failure. I didn't know i hurt her. I only knew it when i got home from hospital. Am really sorry sorry sorry abt it. I didn't mean to rub salt into your wound. I am truely very sorry. Hope you feel better now. So sorry. =(

Labels: Bluie, Me

Twinkling@
9/14/2008 10:56:00 PM