His friend chatted with me today as i told him the problem i am facing with his work. He managed to make me happier by asking me to channel my energy to doing something FOR Yida while waiting for him. So i did. I conscientiously search for recipes online and chose to cook him his favourite Aglio olio. The hungry him would have something to eat upon his return back to my house. During the grocery shopping, i still could paint a picture on how am i going to blog about the process and the happiness he would have on his face to see his fav. dish. So i spent my last $20 bucks in my acct.

I had everything ready, just waiting for green light to cook. It wouldn't be nice if it turned cold. I called him at 8ish, he was in a meeting. I called again at 9ish, he never pick up. He returned his call abt 10ish telling me he wun be home till 11 or so. My heart sank but still pin a slight hope on his return. True enough, i was rewarded. Rewarded generously with disappointment. He may not be coming back. Even if he does, it will be 1ish in the morning. Who's going to open the door for him?

My hope busted. I tot i was naive enough again. Friend told me that i wanted to do those things on my own accord, he didn't force me to. So whatever disappointment i am facing now was my own problem. Ya, maybe it's true.

Every weekday i have to go through this again and again and again and again. Friend told me to heck it, why think so much about it? I can't. I know the problem lies in me. I really feel sucky about not being able to cleave away from that thought and being so depressed over his commitment to work.

My notes was left in the car coz he said it will lighten my load. Now i have problems getting my notes back which i need them on thurs. Perfect!

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6/24/2008 10:51:00 PM