I almost lost myself completely
Getting out of episodes is the most difficult thing to do this time
Somewhere there, somewhere not there
My mind started to wander to things like "when i die, how good it will be; when i die, this and that"
I could smile and laugh but not within
Weak or is there any other word could describe me?

I cried badly yesterday night before i sleep with him
I cried till i could feel my sockets swollen
I cried till i felt it was better that he is not with me
I cried till i am left with that little bit of strength
But i still want to get away from everything...... leave the world

He told me all sorts of thing i know he could think to pull me together
We hugged
Next day, i still feel the same, DEPRESSED.....very, extremely depressed
Like i will never return to what i was before
I woke up knowing that i cannot breathe properly
I woke up knowing that he helped my mum mopped the floor

Where is the strong me????
WHEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
COME BACK WILL YOU???????????/

Twinkling@
12/09/2006 11:58:00 AM