There's no life in me now. I'm just a sleeping log. Sleep and sleep. I slept for the whole day and there's nothing much i can do to stop it. Am i not fighting enough? The difference right now is that i dun have emotions choking at my throat. Instead i'm calm. I'm like saying let it come let it come and devour me. Just come... There's no need to fight. No need...
Twinkle saw me sleeping. Kept making noise. I can only manage to bring him out for a while. Drowsiness overwhelmed me. I'm so tired of overcoming my slepiness. For what? Will that help? It wun. Never will. I tot this time it's not. But it's it. I thought this time i wun but it came. e only difference is wat i mentioned above.
I dun wan to wake up. Coz i dunno what to do when i wake up? I have no interest in doing other things.... no interest at all. Life at this point of time if i'm e old me, i would hate myself. Blame god, blame everybody esp my mum. But now i didn't. What for? Hiaz

I'm in a daze now. I still need to work on monday. Need to run this very impt experiment. Can i do it correctly? That would be a challenge for me. On Wed, thurs and fri, i managed to do something which needs so much concentration and i accomplished it. Can i do it on monday? I htink i can.

But i just hate to have people around me. I just hate people right now. Coz i nd to ENTERTAIN them. Can't they just leave me alone?

Everything i look out of my room, i saw the flower cake. I remembered yday.

My life is pausing

Twinkling@
3/19/2005 08:13:00 PM