I dun feel good lying. I am nv good at that. I told R last night i like E. He was so devastated...kept saying," dun do this to me, pls cum bk to me. U can say i'm cheap, even if u have affair with E, pls cum bk to me when i'm bk. I will die without u. I nd you. U are my motivation in my studies." I've nv seen him like that b4, never! I felt weird being so important to sumone suddenly. It's like two diff person. I'm moved. He sent me an email after we hang up.
Dar, I know I have hurt you and I promise you that I won't do it again. I have learned that I cant live without u and that you are truely important to me. I will treasure the chance that you gave me in our r/ship well and I will prove to you that I am serious in making us work again.. You are my everything and everything ! Though I am 27 now the fact is that you complete me.. From now onwards I will make our r/ship work.. I love u lots and there is no one that can replace you. Dun work too hard at work okay... Remember to have yr lunch as well.. Thanks for everything you have given me, it's time for to give u my everything now and I will.

Love u
R

I'm still flabbergast when i write this blog n read that mail again. I feel somthing. Feel that sumthing is gonna turn up good for the two of us.
This afternoon, he called to tell me he's gg to sch. I did breathe a word to E but came to know tt he took it as a joke. E broke off with his gf. Damn, i'm a sinner! I told E,
" I dun wanna cheat yr feelings or R's. I wanna be fair. Can u compete with R when he's back?"
E," Sorry, i dun like to compete with ppl. I dun beg for love. Anyway, thanks for the time together."
Speechless, i'm at fault too. I replied nothing.
GOsh.. see? R is online now.... at this hr which is so rare. I hope this change is not temporary.


Twinkling@
2/03/2005 07:53:00 PM